I'm to sexy for your logic! -- Jake
Ah… So along comes a new year. And with it, unrealistic new years resolutions. Well, not everybody’s new years resolutions are unrealistic…but usually mines are. Lets just say that it’d be easier for me to sprout wings and fly away.
Christina’s New Year
1.) To gain five intelligence points.
I feel that my ability to describe things in an explicit and simplified way quite lacking. My writing capability is diminishing quite rapidly. And my vocabulary is… going bye-bye. I find myself running towards the dictionary and thesaurus a lot now-a-days. But maybe that’s because I’m learning, or maybe it’s because I’m just stupid. Either or, I feel really dumb. I feel that I cannot express myself properly, in a way that other people can properly comprehend what I am saying. So, when people have “intelligent conversations” (Usually it’s only Jake and Dylan that have meaningful intelligent conversations. Complete with intelligent blasters and heeh missiles.) I keep quiet. Scared that I might say something incomprehensible. So I keep my mouth shut, no matter how much I really want to point out something, say my thoughts, or tell them “Well, F YOU! YOUR WRONG! And this is why your wrong…”.
Very recently Dylan pointed out that I shouldn’t be afraid of adding to the conversation. Well, but I am. Jake and Dylan, (no matter how much they deny it) are extremely intellectual. I lack their great ability to…well…talk and make sense at the same time.
So yes, this year, I shall try to gain five intelligence points so I can be as clever as Dylan and Jake…. Well…lawlz.
2.) To quit playing hide and seek.
I hide my feelings to much. Good or bad, I hide them. And that has proven itself a massive problem. Although I have been improving, I haven’t exactly been sky rocketing to achieving my goal of not hiding. Yet again, I am scared of what people will think when I speak my mind. I feel so cowardly! RAWR.
3.) To beat, out do, and surpass Dylan at every single video game… because I’m Asian.
Does that even need an explanation? I don’t think so. ^.^ Although I do think it’d be easier to sprout wings and learn how to fly.
This year has definitely been the most eventful year yet. I have met new wonderful people, I have met the person I love and what to be with forever. I have learned and experienced new things. I have felt feelings (physically and spiritually) that I never thought I would ever feel before.
I am definitely looking forward to two thousand and seven.
posted by Nichi @ 1:29 PM
12 Comments:
1) The insecurity itself is your fallacy, Christina, not your level of intellect, however you may define it. In addition, what better way to improve on said insecurity than to go straight to the root of the problem, and take part in our conversational MISSSILLES??!?!?! I have a feeling that a decent portion of the reason for our conversations being so insightful is that we've been doing it for a long time. In fact, I notice that usually when I begin to feel insecure in the VERY SAME WAY you are, it's BECAUSE it has been a while since I've partaken in any discussion of that degree. So join us, Christina. You are much more insightful than you give yourself credit for, and we want to hear what you have to say.
2) I don't take enough time out of my day, like you do for me, to tell you how wonderful you are in words. I must work on that, because on several occasions now it's led to you having overly negative feelings, such as that you never satisfy me, and no matter how hard you try, you can't stop hiding.
Christina, I love you dearly, and you are improving and have improved a great deal over the wonderful time we have had together thus far. I don't continue to make references and analogies to your "hiding" from me because you aren't improving -- it's actually the opposite. I notice that it has some effect, so I rinse and reuse the same metaphor, knowing that you might recognize it and pick up on the subject at hand more easily than otherwise. Don't worry, you don't have to be afraid to tell Jake he's gay.
3) Unrealistic? You mean inevitable, right?
I love you.
1.) Yes Dylan. I do know insecurity is what is holding me back...but still, I do think I really need to improve intellectually. I would feel more comfortable jumping into your conversations without feeling like I'm ruining the conversation with my blabber mouth. But from now on, if I do have something to say, I'll be sure to butt in.
Well, besides you and Jake, who do I hold "intelligent" conversations with? Nobody. So yes, yet again I am inexperienced in that field.
2.) You don't have to tell me in words. You show me that you love me everytime we see each other.
You make me feel beautiful. When I always feel that I'm not attractive enough. I really don't think I look good. I'm a very harsh critic when it comes to how I look. I always wish I could look more pretty for you. Oh well...lawlz, Christina has low self-esteem!! Anyways,
You make me feel wonderful when I feel absolutly blah-ish. I love how you love me. You have proved to me over and over again how you genuinely care about me.
I need to tell you that you are wonderful, because you are.
I want to hold you, look into your eyes and tell you what an amazing creature you are and how much I love you. I want to be there for you, I want you to know how I truly do care for you. I have to tell you this over and over again, I need to burn it into your heart. I really do love you. I hope you never get tired of hearing me say that.
I love you.
Jake's gay? omfg. really?!?
3.)Oh well YESSSSSSSSS Dylan. I'm out to get you.
4.) There's something you need to know...I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
i will now say what i said before, cuz i don't know if you guys saw me comment.
well, dylan, lust and love have 2 very different places. TRUE love waits. TRUE love is an action, NOT a feeling. TRUE love would respect that you both are NOT old enough for this stuff. TRUE love would keep it's distence till the time is RIGHT! just beacaue what you and Christina are doing is FUN and enjoyable and SEEMS to meat all your lusts and passions, does NOT mean that it is RIGHT. just cuz it FEELS right, doesn't mean it is. the only place where you will EVER find REAL joy, i didn't say happieness, i said JOY, is in God. I don't think that Christina should wait for all this till she is "18" I think she (and you) should wait till you are ready to GET MARRIED. and (i'm sorry this WILL sound mean, but it is the truth) nether of you are ready for marrage. i NEVER said that what you are doing is evil, but done in the WRONG TIME, and in the WRONG WAY, it is. you are taking all the stuff that SHOULD be for AFTER the wedding day, and doing it now. passion and romance are good. wunderful, God made in fact. but he did NOT mean it for when people are NOT married. and personally, i think that a man should NEVER EVER say "i love you" to a girl, till he is READY to say, "will you marrie me" RIGHT after. REAL passion and REAL romance and REAL love is sooooooooooo amazing, if you guys would just WAIT till you were married, oh man, it would be amazing.
ok, i wont preach anymore, i can go on and on for hours. (right Christina?!?) just PLEAS think about what we are saying!!!! PLEAS!!!!! forget what feels right for a moment, and think.
OH YAH! and as far as "inocent" people go, there ARE none. if ALL God did was send His sone to save us, that would be enough. WE deserve the WRATH of God!!! WE ARE born with sin!!! THER IS NO INOCENT PERSON! so to say that God is unfair, that you don't deserve hell, i'm sorry to tell you this, but you do. we all do. we are saved by GRACE ALONE! but God does SO MUCH more then just save us!!!!!! SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!
I love you too, Nichi. :)
"So flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart. Have nothing to do with foolish, ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome, but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness." 2 Timothy 2:22-25
I thought these verses were incredibly appropriate for our discussion. Since I am the Lord's servant, I will do my best to remain true to the scriptures. I will try not to breed quarrels, but "correct with gentleness". I pray, God forgive me if I become harsh.
First of all, there is nothing you can say that will persuade me to turn away from my Savior. I know this is not your goal at all; you have said so in reply to Katherine. However, you did say some hurtful things, like I have clouded vision and that Christianity is a tarnished religion. I know these things are not scriptural, so I will not and cannot believe them.
I am not trying to take Christina's happiness away from her. I am doing nothing of the sort, and I know I cannot. God caused thw two of you to meet for a reason beyond my knowledge. It is a part of His will and I pray He will be glorified in it.
However, the way you speak of my all-glorious Savior does anger me. And the fact that you resist His free grace puzzles me! You must realize that you live before a holy and just God every day. And you WILL give account for each of them at the return of Christ.
You're right in saying that I do not know how much you love each other. I do not know as much about this stuff as Katherine knows because I'm only 15. However, all I know is whenever I get married, I want my husband to love his Savior more than he loves me. God ordained for marriage to take place so that man could multiply and for Himself to be glorified. Marriage is a sacred thing; not social. And there are some things that God ordered to take place AFTER marriage, and not before. However, today's society seems to be getting it backwards.
I agree with Katherine; all my feeble attempts for doing righteous works are but filthy rags!
"The answer to that should not be 'O God please save me'. It should be a lifelong quest of doing good to others."
Man is saved by faith ALONE. Our salvation is given freely to us through the blood of Christ, so that we may boast in none other but our savior. Our cries to God SHOULD be "O God, please save me. I am incapable of saving myself. If I performed good works all my life, it would still not be enough to save my soul because I am still full of blemishes. Only the perfect, spotless blood of your Son can rescue me from the wrath I deserve."
Wake up and see the glory!
correction:
"...It should be a lifelong quest to save yourself from doing wrong to others."
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"And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome, but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness."
'I thought these verses were incredibly appropriate for our discussion.'
Of course you did, thereby factualizing my speculation that you see both my love for Christina AND my entire arguement as some evil entity. I did not make the generalization that Christianity itself is "tarnished", but that people who present their arguements as undeniable facts in a closed-minded way, such as, I'm afraid to say, YOU, discredit members of said religion as a whole.
"Our cries to God SHOULD be "O God, please save me. I am incapable of saving myself. If I performed good works all my life, it would still not be enough to save my soul because I am still full of blemishes."
For the FINAL TIME. I do NOT claim perfection, nor do I claim absolution for any positive qualities I mention. I claim only (and Jesus actually does too) that, in one's life, it is best to strive to achieve these qualities. In my opinion, the main principle of Christianity is/was to give people a reason for benevolence, a reward for moral and ethical values! It was meant to open the doors of your mind, that you may be all ears and little tongue, but you have closed your doors to the rest of the world in favor of sheltered conceit. I pity you, but STOP SPREADING IT! Call your nearest congressman, and tell him to do something about global warming, CO2 emissions -- our planet is dying, and people like you don't give a rat's ass because Jesus will save you. Jesus is crying, child.
Well, it's part of Revelations to have the world destroyed. and for those that are saved, we have hope of heaven. i, personally, can not stop spreading the good news. how can we? it's the only way to be saved. we despratly want you, and all other people that aren't saved, to come to Jesus. i think these are the end times, and with these times (if i am right) comes sooo much destruction. and death. but, also hope! for our savior is coming back. but oh, for those that do not turn from their ways, and fallow Christ, only hell awaits.
oh pleas pleas come to Him! your soul is hanging by a thread.
i (again) say i am very sorry for how i reacted earlyer to you. i hope you (and Christina) can forgive me. i should have said those things in a very very different way.
Oh god, it's true... These so-called "friends" of Christina have, in fact, ignored everything that she(and especially Dylan) have said in the last ten posts, and are too stupid to be reasoned with.
"I know these things are not scriptural, so I will not and cannot believe them."
Are you fucking SERIOUS? LISTEN TO HOW YOU SOUND RIGHT NOW, Emily. How stupid can you be? Are you really this narrow-minded, so irrationally conceited that you must rely on the Bible to make ALL judgments for you, ESPECIALLY when it has to do with someone you barely know? Lets simply IGNORE, for a moment, that you arent simply confused and that you have actually interpreted the purely symbolic meanings of this age-old relic a bit more accurately. That is, those beliefs were, of course, created by a group of human beings. Why? Because, under ideal circumstances, to be human IS divine. With constant discipline and UTTER devotion, anybody can become a deity. It is divine for mankind to atone for their sins individually, or even for one another as seen when the INDIVIDUAL known as Jesus Christ sacrificed himself for the greater good. That was SYMBOLIC of what man should attain. It is divine for women to be beautiful, graceful and virtuous, living by example and always being kind to others. It is DIVINE for men to be strong, righteous and responsible. There's nothing MORE obvious about the Bible than it promotes a strong sense of integrity and honor among all peoples, but that's not necessarily the ONLY way to think about it. Who decided that mankind had the potential to be eternally divine? Well, man did of course. There isnt literally some all-powerful monolith perched in a big-ass waiting room in the sky, watching over us to make sure we all behave using millions of security cameras, or else he shoves a LIGHTNING bolt up our asses and sends us down to hell. No Emily, it's a BIT more complicated than that. See? You've been addressing Christina(and particularly Dylan in terms of his so-called lust, hence illustrating YET AGAIN your failure to shut the fuck up and listen) in a condescending manner this entire time, even though YOU'RE the one who sounds like an IDIOT right now.
As far as I've seen, almost NONE of the values which you've so thoroughly punctuated have been at ALL original. I'm not sure you even think about most of the things you say at all, but only cite a section of the Bible, thinking that you've made some kind of irrefutable point with that. Although you've stated that you are trying to HELP Christina because you supposedly care for her, you've done nothing but make a non-explanatory, pompous dolt of yourself this entire time. Maybe you do want to help; I wont call bullshit on that one just yet, because to do so would in itself be presumptuous. But if you really want to help, you should DEFINITELY change your approach.
Beth: "you SHOULDN'T have sex till your married, sorry. I'm too sexy for my logic!"
Jake: "WHAT? You mean the Bible CONDONES hypocrisy?"
Beth: "But I still need an answer to my question, even though it was already given in the form of ten paragraphs and I'm too lazy to actually read it lolz!"
I don't think the sexual practice of this relationship is for either of you to decide. Your input is clearly of some value to Christina(and is subsequently more noted by Dylan than he would otherwise care to shed light on with a couple mindless rednecks) but there IS a limit you know. Seriously, mind your own freaking business... You have your values(sort of) and that's nice, but you should recognize when your personal beliefs ascertaining to someone else's ethical choices have turned into an obnoxious and redundant invasion of privacy. The ORIGINAL purpose of this blog was to express her love and dedication to her boyfriend, NOT to start a holy war. Besides the blatant contradictions of your excessive mention of the Bible and your "savior", dont you think you've been going slightly off-topic this whole time? Instead of focusing selfishly on your silly religious faith, you should be trying to give Christina, your friend, a bit of sound advice on how she should further escalate the intimacy of her relationship with Dylan, rather than pouting this pretentious bullshit about how she shouldnt have sex with ANYBODY she loves no matter WHAT until that magical day when she turns 18 and can exchange formal vows with Dylan.
Patronize yourself all you want with "as long as I pray every day, it doesn't matter how stupid I sound", but as far as this relationship goes, your unoriginal rants about how sex is bad before marriage is a moot point. After all, what's WRONG with it? Human expression, at times, can be a very powerful and essential thing. If that's the way two people who love one another wish to help one another through life's various hurdles, then I think that's perfectly fine, and obviously they do too.
I think Dylan and Christina have said what needs to be said, and the debate is now becoming obscenely repetitive and your intrusiveness is becoming far too much for me to stomach. They tried to reason with you, and went to great lengths to convince you of their in fact pure intentions, but you continue to press the matter in absolute tones, obscuring the purpose of this argument by using endless anecdotes from a source which has been in existence for longer than both your last names combined.
Not that you were really listening, but I think this couple has ALSO elaborated quite clearly that while they respect your PERSONAL OPINION(or the word-for-word citations of the Bible, rather) on the fine details of THEIR RELATIONSHIP, they too have their own way of thinking, and now that you've instilled your perspective onto the matter, it's time to take the hint and TAKE a hike.
I understand that you, Beth, are someone who Christina considers a friend. If that's the case, be a pal and stop sniveling about her ethical choices. If you need someone to pity and look down on, you need only look in the mirror. If the Bible promotes integrity, why aren't you striving to do so? Please learn to practice what you screech, then maybe people who are actually capable of thinking for themselves might take you more seriously.
Oh Jake, you definately went all out on that one didn't you?
*sigh*
I'd thank you not to insult my friends. I still consider them my friends and I absolutely love them.
Thanks for leaving a comment though, I always enjoy hearing your thoughts on things.
You've definately made a point that...
Your too sexy for their logic.
"I think Dylan and Christina have said what needs to be said, and the debate is now becoming obscenely repetitive and your intrusiveness is becoming far too much for me to stomach. They tried to reason with you, and went to great lengths to convince you of their in fact pure intentions"
Thank you for pointing that out. Although it seems repetitive, I don't mind saying things over and over and over and over again (to some extent) I don't mind leaving these book-long comments. I feel that I must clarify myself to them. I have to show my friends my intentions, and what I truely mean.
I know I have been repetitive on this but... "Sachi, I love you."
Now I am pretty sure everybody understood that. It's in plain english, the most widely spoken language of our time.
I LOVE DYLAN
If nobody knows that right now...then I shall give up. But I do think you all know that. Right? right.
"The ORIGINAL purpose of this blog was to express her love and dedication to her boyfriend, NOT to start a holy war. Besides the blatant contradictions of your excessive mention of the Bible and your "savior", dont you think you've been going slightly off-topic this whole time? Instead of focusing selfishly on your silly religious faith, you should be trying to give Christina, your friend, a bit of sound advice on how she should further escalate the intimacy of her relationship with Dylan, rather than pouting this pretentious bullshit about how she shouldnt have sex with ANYBODY she loves no matter WHAT until that magical day when she turns 18 and can exchange formal vows with Dylan."
Oh well. EXACTLY. I feel as if can take a deep breath and relax now. Somebody has actually understood what I was trying to say. For a moment there, I felt as if I didn't make any kind of sense at all.
"Patronize yourself all you want with "as long as I pray every day, it doesn't matter how stupid I sound", but as far as this relationship goes, your unoriginal rants about how sex is bad before marriage is a moot point. After all, what's WRONG with it? Human expression, at times, can be a very powerful and essential thing. If that's the way two people who love one another wish to help one another through life's various hurdles, then I think that's perfectly fine, and obviously they do too."
Well. OBVIOUSLY.
"i (again) say i am very sorry for how i reacted earlyer to you. i hope you (and Christina) can forgive me. i should have said those things in a very very different way."
Oh Beth, what is there to forgive? I love you, and I know your just trying to look out for me. But please, I beg of you not to pressure me. I get enough of it from my family members.
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I actually have more to say...But I think I'll just post another blog. Seeing as these comment boxes have over ten comments. It might explode. -.-
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